Musings on Stash

From Theresa

A while back, someone dropped off about six garbage bags of yarn for our knitting-for-others groups. As I was sorting through it—browns and tans for the Mother Bear Project, cottons for the chemo hat knitters, vibrant acrylics for the church ladies—I found an unfinished project, needles still in place halfway through the row. I was struck by such a sense of connection and sadness. Who was this knitter? Why hadn’t she finished the row? What happened to her as she was thinking, “Let me just finish this row.” From the era of the yarn and the needles, I guess the project was from an older knitter who’d either had to give up knitting or who’d died suddenly.

I know from experience that sometimes we aren’t allowed to finish the row—in our knitting or in our lives.

As I looked at this half-finished shawl, I had a choice—I could rip it out and let someone reuse the yarn. The yarn could be reincarnated into a new hat and scarf, a sweater, an afghan. Or I could leave it as is and let someone else rip it out. Or I could finish the row, finish the shawl, and pass it on.

That’s what I did, I finished the shawl that some other knitter had started. And I gave the shawl to a group that knits and crochets blankets and shawls for hospice. It lives on even as I’m sure the original knitter doesn’t. I designed the Carmarthan shawl (TG #134), adapting the stitch pattern used in that unfinished project.

If only we could all live long enough to knit up our entire stashes. Would that mean that if we kept buying yarn and knitting that we could convey eternal life upon ourselves?


6 responses to “Musings on Stash

  1. This was so moving, Theresa. I love that you finished the project, and the idea that we could do this for one another in so many aspects of our lives! Thank you for sharing this.

  2. What a wonderful thought, and a wonderful act of kindness for both the original knitter and the recipient!

  3. Your insight into the half finished row and shawl was very touching. The fact you finished the shawl and donated it is a great rememberance of the person who started it.

  4. Theresa, I’m so glad you suggested I read “Musings on a Stash.” What a wonderful gift. Thanks for all your help, Mary Divine

  5. About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive [I had no control over my process]. I was released from hospital 16th September 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically. He’s a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life, today, after a childhood spent in orphanages [England & Australia]. God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, & shame, are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you [Luke 8: 16 – 17].

    Peace Be With You

  6. hi there – i just bought this pattern from my local yarn store — for some reason I was very drawn to it and am making it for my mom. I am glad that you finished the goal of someone else. I hope to do that for my mom someday. Bless you for such a kind gesture. I get lots of oohs and ahhs on my shawl in progress. It is truly beautiful.

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